Sunday mornings are usually stressful for me, and worship services are not usually a time that is easy. I dread the morning rush and the training of my now-teachable-but-still-fidgety child during the worship hour. This morning, to at least get ONE part of the day right and stress-free (and hopefully not start the day by going all crazy-wife), I got up early and enjoyed a leisurely coffee over my daily Bible reading, and then prepared buckwheat pancakes for my hubby.
I woke him up to come get breakfast, and I reached out for his hand as a signal for him to give thanks for the meal, which he did:
“Father, Thank you so much for this food. Please be with us today as we worship you, and be with our son—let him behave for my wife today, Lord, so that she can focus on you…”
I am absolutely sure he said more, but as for the words, I couldn’t quote them if I tried. My thoughts stopped there. His words made my heart race.
First of all, I was struck by how incredibly blessed I am to have such a man. If ever I was grateful to have him, I was then. I am so thankful that I have a man who thinks of my needs, and prays for them.
Then, I was ashamed. My husband had unwittingly highlighted something I had been neglecting—I hadn’t communicated to God my frustrations and desires in this area. I had never prayed for this myself! When my husband did, it seemed so simple—so obvious. I pray often for wisdom in handling him, but so far as specific requests for his behavior in worship, I hadn’t made any conscious and concerted effort to pray for that on a regular basis.
Why not? Because I was trying to be in control. I had taken this task on with stalwart resolve and I was going to finish it. I was the one who was holding the struggling child, sacrificing my precious worship time and brain space. I would teach that child to stay.
What I had forgotten is that it is the Lord who is in control of the situation at large. He gives me strength, peace, and wisdom—and makes my paths straight. Without Him, I build my house and train my child in vain (Psalm 127:1). He expects me to bring even these seemingly small burdens to Him. All my cares (1 Peter 5:7). My heart’s desires (Romans 10:1). Intentionally. Purposefully. Specifically. Often.
In a way, I believe the Lord answered our prayer positively today. My 5-month-old didn’t sit through the whole service today, but I was able to concentrate better than I have on many days, and he didn’t disrupt me during the Lord’s Supper as he usually does.
Praying for the Lord to be with us as we worshipped really helped me to have peace this morning as well. I knew that the Lord was in control over the whole situation, and would give me what I needed to make it through.
Lord gives the weary strength, and can do great things through our prayer. This is something I know I need to acknowledge and take advantage of far more often than I do. I need to remember that He cares about the little things—He cares about my little struggles. But I have the responsibility of bringing them to him more often.
He wants to help me, but He also wants me to ask.
My husband reminded me this morning to be more intentional about bringing “my heart’s desire and prayer to God” (Romans 10:1). Because He hears and He cares about the desires of my heart.
“And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him” (1 John 5:14, 15)
With such great promises that bring such surpassing peace and comfort, what is stopping us from bringing our cares to Him and having our burdens lifted?
“Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7)
What are some things that you have intentionally prayed for? How did you see God working in your life as a result?
Along these lines, I highly recommend you download my friend Phylicia’s free ebook, Before I Knew You: Praying over Your Pregnancy, Birth, and Baby. This is something I also wish I had been more intentional about praying for!